Friday, December 30, 2005
short term palliatives
exacerbated. =)Grace and forbearance just never seemed to be understood by humans at times.I cannot fathom enough about friendship that God has given me.Thank you, Jesus.I just took at two hours plus journey home on foot with brandon till the initial stage then with fang wei till the intermidate followed by joeseph over the phone to the final point. =) Though it was a long long journey but i'm dumbfounded at how God has been so good to me. Father, i thank you for really giving me a friend where i could turn too physically. When i feel so lost, you led me once again. Thank you for giving me a friend when i needed it the most. Brandon, thanks for being there for me and listening to all my fumbles. Thank you. I never regreted knowing you and having you as my buddy as you were there for me many times. Just like today. Thanks for reminding me this thing called God's Grace upon our lives. I really appreciate it that much! Just when i needed someone God you gave. I cannot fathom your deeds upon my life indeed. =) Surely your love and grace will follow me where ever i land my foot on.Forbearance is what you gave me not short term palliatives. =) Thank you Jesus.Thank you for reminding me that i live by grace. Sometimes we humans find it so hard to forgive oursleves because we are so conform to the pattern of this world. All the faults has to lie with a person till the point of peak that the person ends his/her life. But God's grace allows forgiveness in our lives. Is not the price on the cross paid off for you and me? Why do we still find it so hard to forgive ourselves when the greater one has forgiven us? Are we belittling on his ability to forgive? What does the cross mean to you?The ability to forgive oneself display the comprehension of the work of the cross. Truly i'm amazed by it.Never will i forget today. =) the long long walk with fang wei. The sharing of lives and singing of songs. North people are the best family i have ever made so far. Simple and willing to do life with me. think about it? Isn't it a dumb idea to purposely walk for more than 15km? But still they are willing to do it with me. Not because i lord over them but this love we all have for each other. I simply love this feeling. Thus this will be same for west! A group that people feel love and appreciate just like how jesus did it. =) yesh! That's what i feel and it will happen! The brothers will initial outings like dinner? bball? outing? studying? overnight? The leader need not to be the one that initial it but it will be done by the people. Ohana is what i really longed to see. Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind. Indeed! It will happen in west! yup! Speak of ohana, doing life together. I went to jurong somewhere to do homework with haixing today. we spent like 4hours there? whahaha. that's new. yup. we had lunch too. yeah. really enjoyed doing life with all my family members! But we have to grow to 15 by end january! I will be done and it must be done! yeah! CCK a unit! By all means!hmm. meanwhile now i will go and play some game. Thank you fang wei!Not forgetting JOESPH LUM who being so kind enough to call me to chat with me. I really appreciate you a lot bro! yeah!david hoe
till the end;2:28 AM
