running the race.

Monday, May 09, 2005

we all came into this unknown world. Trapped inside the womb and anticpating for a beacon of light, didn't we? Well.. we did not expect to step into this world that has that much darkeness but somehow we got our foot into it. Hoping that things will recuperate to what we thought about in the womb but it seems like it will never happen. In a world that is full of joy and no more pain. Well. As we grow to the next stage of life as a teenager we begin to see that it was never tears of joy but tears of pain.
We questioned 'Why did it turn out this way?'
For some reasons the world that we thought was full of justice was just a thought that will vanish soon. In this world, is there justice? Well.. The naive mind thinks it does however the mind can no longer decieve itself and starts to understand that this world is a total cheat to his feelings.
Hoping that some light will shine onto the world on day. We hoped.
well.. maybe we are unable to comprehend what the world is constanting doing thus we just stared into it blankly and soon we will be susceptible by it.
Time still files and we are allowing our mind to be mould by the world. The so called virture of ours has been debased. Well. it starts to fall as we continue to see what the 'right world' is doing. Lying, cheating, stealing and sexual imorality were once wrong when we were younger but now... Things have changed. The will of our mind cannot resist the tachings of the world and we allow our mind to be susceptible by it.
Trying to find a way to escape yet we can't. lost in the maze. We got ourselves into it. So lost. We wished that the thought of the world being infallible will come to past. 'Dream on' the other side of your mind says. The naive thought when we were young is now offically dead. The hope is given up.
Now since it's an endless chase in darkeness we continued to run in the maze. heading to no where and soon finding ourselves in the death bed.
Just instant seconds before death we wonderm, 'What have i done with my life?' The pursue for money, fame and imoraility. nothing wrong. But it has been such a endless chase.
Closing our eyes tears rolled down. With a great sense of guilt. 'Why did i let my guard down?' was the last question we asked then we sleep forever.

That's just something running through my head about people without meaning in life. I remember those days when i was younger i thought that the world was a peaceful place till i grew up. Now i have seen certain stages of my life and i am glad that i am not in the rut of endless chase but in a race that glorifies his name.

Well.. one paper is down today. Made some here adn there errs. Well at max i hope i just lost 20 mraks out of 80. haha.. i don't think it's diffcult but i did not study that much. i only started studying yesterday on a math. haha.. well. going to study more later. chem and e math. haha..
=)

David

till the end;11:32 AM