running the race.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

i strolled into the my homeroom after meal today and suddenly the thought dawned upon me 'Exams are coming in only few days time!What have i done about it? WAKE UP FROM YOUR NAIVE MIND, DAVID!!!' Anxiety filled my heart instantly without my permission. What a rude guy anxiety is? haha. i kinda seriously figured out that it's time for me to get in total concentration in studyin as exams are just round the coner. It never really ring within me that i should really mug even harder till today. The best part of the whole package is that my second paper is only 2 days away. oh mine gosh... haha. then 3rd paper is like ermm.. 6 days? haha.. 'What i can help all of you is that i can only give you guys the answers and you do the working by your own,' squeked mdm ong. 'As if students can firgured out all the answers!' i mumbled.
sometimes i think i am a freak. haha.. wait till last minute that mugged like a worm. haha.. so amazing. but think with the consistent revision, things aren't that worse. haha..
i feel that i am very blessed to be who i am. Though by default i shouldn't but i come to recognize it even in a deeper measure just recently. In the past my dad and my relationship was like heaven and hell. haha.. damn distant lah. hardly even talked. well.. maybe we did. 'Where's my allowance?' would be my highly frequent questions in the past. But now things have changed over the years. I feel blessed when i can have home cooked food or even just having a little time out to be at home with dad around. hmmm.. we are still building on relationship but still improving. yeah. not only that. one greatest act of God in my life i could never ever thought it will ever happened is where i am today. being able to pursue a A level certificate. yeah. never once did i ever thought it was possible. I feel also ultra blessed to have a wonderful sheep and DMM members in my life. yeah. they are just simply wonderful plpe. Today i was thinking of all my ex sheep in chruch ever since the first day i became a shepherd till now. And they all have played a significant role in building up my life. lastly i am really blessed to have wonderful buddies and pals in my life.
buddies? Matthew and Jravin. always there. =)
pals? Brandon, bruce, david ong, darly kang, joesph and loads more.
ohh.. last but not least all my past shepherds. the very firece to the gentle one. e.g of very firece one is my current shpherd. haha. don't tell ya which one of the two. haha.. and the encouragement yet firm shepherd. yeah. haha..
i just feel so blessed. i am not looking in terms of the materials things i have but all those things that i simply tresure.
I love all my plpe and sheep. =)
Moreover Jesus i love yah.
David

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