running the race.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

'I don't know. It seems like eternity for me to get rid of this phobia that irriates me that i can blow off anytime,' my thought for that moment. 'God, i wished that this will be my strength but much fear and anxiety bestowed upon me! I am at the end of my tether for the courage to do well.'

This is the only killer paper that i ever encounter in the whole eternity of my life on earth. English. 'I don't know how to aces it but somehow i do know how to fail it,' i thought to myself.

'Though as much fear and axiety within me, David you must still trust in the God who is faithful! Amen?' sounded like the holy spirit. Well.. i am going to trust God.

I do hope to be able to get at least a B3 for english. My L1R5 to be below 10 points. yeah. that's my goal. No unscruplous means to do well for my mid years. I condone behaviour that are beyond the moral self of a human.

Man are fickled minded aren't they? That's just something i abhor about it. That's why i choose not to be fickled minded and just trust God while i do my best dude. yeah. Probe a little deeper to my personal motive of doing well. Basically i do not mind getting bad grades but i just want to glorifiy my beloved King and friend.

'Has is turn harden?' i murmured to myself. 'Myabe when they really understand God's grace for them which may cause a stir up in their hearts.'

The part which detest my eyes is when people heart turned harden towards God. Why? Simply how strong is their relationship with God. Yeah.

I pay homage to people who actually keep thier hearts pure before the lord and they are benevolent people as they have recieved God's abundant grace.

Infact i am not making a mountain out of a molehill. yup. Your absence made my heart go fonder. A day without God is sucky. I hate the fact of doing life alone.

Well.. Today i went to pay a respect to the whoever president wake. Magnificent is the only word i could used to describe the whole ambience of the place. My mouth went wide opened when i stepped into it. His face petrified me. Simply i was also stupefied by the whole istana park. Well.. Basically i went so that i could skip loads of periods of classes. Hmmm.. what i anticipated for came true. I sought of anticipated that people will be crying over him and bulls eye. haha.. yup.

ohh.. i met David ong and some others for a run today during evening. yeah. i really like having people in church doing life with me together. And i've decided on one thing. I will bring my sheep to go exercise with me. yeah. haha.

'Alright, i will be mugging on Geo, chem and El today,' anticipated in my heart. Did i manage to finish my goal? well.. Nope. haha. i seriously have to mug harder already for exams. BUT hold on!!! IT DOESN'T MEAN EXAMS PERIOD MEANS I FORGET ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND MY GROUP!!! THEY ARE STILL IN MY LIFESTYLE! just incase you think i am so into mugging that i forgotten about plpe. yup.

A balanced church.

David

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